why do i always have just a min of happiness?

why cant i be happy? & smile all i want?

i had been faking a smile for a long time, im tired!!

behide of this smile, is all those painful, sorrowful tears

tat no one will notice it..


shiawase ni naritai!!


i dun wanna express out because i know tats nothing anyone can help...

so at times im emotionless, hope u will understands....

i keep singing & singing to express my feeling deep inside,hoping one day some one would hear my voices & let out a hand to me..

over all this time, i felt so alone,so tired,so painful,so suffering

this feeling jus cant go away!!



haiz...sadistic me~