Hey there!

u peeks out there~ still reading my blog?


haha XD i guess not~


i been missing in action for quite a long time alr~ i myself cant rmb too ^^"


well i have nth much to say..but is just tat my life is not been very good! all this while..

i find it so hard to get happy.
so hard to let ppl understands me
so hard to fall deeply to love
so hard to keep on my damn life.

last time is alone & tough, but now is even worse. add on the stress tgt.

yeah true im no longer single u see, but wif him by my side is like... yeah he is my bf but just a word only. (just say out how i feel inside)

why he is so close to me but yet i cant reach him..

yeah he did tell me tat he loves me, he found me... but wat he did is not enough.
he is tat kind of guy tat need ppl to tell him how to do tis n tat in love life, scare tat i reject,scare tat hurt me n dont know wat to do & told me tat he is trying hard but is not enough!! is not gotta be enough!! im alr emotion destroy is gotta be really hard. but saying tat love me is no use i need actions~

why cant he know tat?
why cant he relize tat?
not tat i have to always tell him.. just why cant he knew it?


cause inside me is screaming away, is he the really my real soulmate?

i need a soulmate,a knight, a deep understanding of love guy,not just do some simple stuffs n thought tat im really happy already~


i feel like giving up any mins alr.. i need a time on my own. & find my anwser to this puzzle.




so ppl if u dont see or heard me dont have to panic i will be away till im really am ok cause i really need to be leave alone pls~ im so tired inside out!





will be back till den~





Jaanee~