look at the pic & tell me how i feel right now?, how i look right now? 

loneliness. 

how much am i gotta stands this feeling.

how much am i gotta sacrifice & take my happiness back. 

so tired. 

the only thing tat keeps me from dead off this world is MUSIC 

it takes my soul to paradise land & tell me to listen to it & feel once again. 

if not i dont think i wont be like what i am now. 

the heart with scars of the past, 

the smiles are all fake now, is ever not gotta be real. 

this world is unkind. 

i had seen it though. 

& im not fucking okay with it!  

but what can i ever do? i hate it to be like this. 

help me. or maybe take me to somewhere but not here. 

if this is the test of god who given to his strongest soldiers, 

then i may have fail him.

im sorry.

even the most strongest heart of angels will still fail & fallen down. 

to mankind is even the worst. 

fail & got up, fight the hardest & then lost again. 

forever alone

forever lost.  

please take my body to the land where my soul belong.